So I like to change how my blog looks from time to time, sue me.

So the blackmail turned out awesomely, Jay is now a follower. HI JAY! However this may not be a good thing, since now that I know how effective manipulating my brother went, I might want to try again. For example, I could say, hypothetically mind you, that he should find me 3 more followers for my blog or I could relate his "stop kicking me story" to the whole world.

You have a week.

Oh and I'm going to look for the D2 disks tonight.

Now that the Business portion of today blog has been completed, let's move on to Lifestyle.

I was kinda having a crappy day, but I found out Mum and Dad were going to be in town to see Josh, and I was invited along. I was debating on whether or not to go since I was all blargh, but in the end I caught a ride from Dad over there.

Fucking worth it.

Sitting on the porch just chilling and throwing that soccer ball at Josh was absolutely the fucking thing I needed. Made me miss Jay terribly though.

And I got so much geeky love from everybody today. Yay for Josh and Meg and Trishie, I should be set till University starts. Yay for geeky friends with too much geeky stuff!

Now from Lifestyle to Dating,

Second date went okay, then really awesome, then really pear shaped (for some reason people don't know that pear shaped = bad). Dinner was nice, coffee afterwards was nice, her inviting herself to my empty place was nice, me alleging that the DVD player in the living room was broken and that the one in my room was in good working order was nice (and smart!), and her spending the night was nice. It was nice 4 times that night and once in the morning.

But it was in the morning that things went south. I was feeling pretty good about the whole situation (I doubt anyone can blame me) and then the longer we talked, the more uncomfortable I got. I like this girl, she's cute, thinks I'm funny for some reason, likes Boston Legal, has a marvelous ass , thinks geeky = cute, what's not to like?

Well she's a self admitted door-mat.

Wait.

What?

Yeah she said it straight out. The more questions I asked the more it came out. She's passive, submissive, she has no edge, no passion. She's in school because her parents are paying for it and not from any real interest. The reason her friends tagged along on date #1is because she couldn't tell them no. She has no real ambitions and hates to travel.

I know what I like now, and I know what I'm looking for and unfortunately that's not it. Not even a close, not even a little. Yes, sex is fun (and seriously, what an ass!) but I'm looking for more than that. I'd like someone who pushes back, will tell me when she thinks I'm wrong (and at the time, not 2 weeks later after she debates it with her parents). Some I don't have to worry about introducing to my brothers or the girls.

In short, she's not the girl. Not even one I'd like to keep dating.

That's me.

"Like the poison in her arms, like a whisper she was gone, like an Angel... Angels fall"