Horseshoes

You know how when a person is lucky, it is sometimes said that "they have a horseshoe up their ass"?

What's the opposite of that? Because I think I have that.

My poor ass.

I tend to have bad luck sometimes. It comes and goes. It came hardcore this week. And not in the good, fun loving, some one's wearing a care-bear suit and beating me with a paddle kind of way either.




I won't be going back to school next semester.

Yeah.

It involves a lot of weird financial jargon and oddness but it comes down to OSAP hates me and wants me to die uneducated. Ish.

I do have the option of selling an important body part and being able to make it back next September. I just don't know. I've had so many problems with OSAP and I even struggle with what a philosophy degree is going to do for me anyway. I just don't know. I'm still going to finish out the semester, and kick ass like I've been doing in all my classes. But I'm not a happy camper.

But it doesn't mean I've given up. I'm just going to redirect my efforts/money/life into something else is all. I've been looking for freelance online writing gigs, I have lots of time to work on my short stories, and I'm even looking into writing conferences and workshops and such. All is not lost.

In the meantime I have to work and work and work some more. I also need to find another place that will let me do that for them as well. I'm just not a fan of working a cash register or a phone line more than I already have. But for now it's not like I have much choice.

I liked being a University student. I liked that I was doing better than I ever thought I would. I can't believe at one point I thought I wasn't going to be able to make it through an undergrad program. I liked being part of something big and special and surrounded by people all heading towards the same goal of getting educated. Sounds corny I know, but it really did mean something to me.

But yet again Jay was able to point some things out for me (this is why I keep him around). It's not like I don't have options or ambitions that I have the ability to fulfill. It's not like I don't have awesome roommates and friends. It's not like I don't have people who are going to back me up regardless of what I do.

Oh and I'm sick too. I spent the whole day in my room yesterday with a fever and headache and sore throat. Not fun. I can't even drink my sorrows away!

Also we lost the remote for the television so I can't change the input on the tv so I can watch Star Trek or play Xbox.

Balls to this week! Balls I say!

That's me. Now I have to find a picture of a scary pony and think of a smart ass response using kinds of cheese.