Bring it on

So I've been having a rather crappy last few days. It sucks!

Apparently god/osap/the freeking UofG/women everywhere (not relevant but probably true) hates me and doesn't want me to educate myself. This means paperwork, phone calls, appointments etc. I remember when I went to Fleming and never ever ever had a problem.

Gah!

But I'm fine now.

Ish.

So I went and got shitfaced. Royally. It was great!

I didn't know Jimmy Jazz had a patio but it was fun! So was the free beer we won during trivia! Plus i just kinda don't get to hang out with the girls a whole lot anymore so seeing them was all kinds of good.

My roommates had a good time too! They really screwed with drunk Spammy's head by having someone whose name wasn't in my phone text me responses to the questions I was asking them. I was kinda freaking out cause I had no idea what was going on.

Friends: people who like you enough to fuck with your head while you're drinking.

The hangover...err not so much fun. totally worth it though. Plus it was an excuse to sit on the couch all day and play Final Fantasy 6, read Brandon Sanderson, take a long ass nap and watch movies.

Bonus geek points! Cause if you don't have a girlfriend, who cares how proud you are that Setzer and Locke learned all the espers before/during the floating continent, that you totally called that the priest/friend dude of Shallen's was faking it and how much you enjoyed watching Lethal Weapon 1 2 3 back to back the same night.

Cause that's how I roll.

The methods I've been using to cheer me up have actually cheered me up (weird how that happens eh?). I got to call Lysee and that was fun trying to catch each other up on life while trying to keep the phone call to under a less-than-bank-account-breaking time limit. Still sucks that she isn't gonna be around for Christmas. Stupid Vancouver has to be all the way across the line of "places I can't afford to go".(Which is pretty much anyplace that's not here)

I also talked to Jay and he told me some stuff I really needed to hear, which is pretty much the only thing he's good for besides sending me books. It's still funny that people look at our facebook walls and think we hate each other. I can't wait for his dumb ass to get home.

But yeah, I'm not all angry and shit anymore. I'm just really annoyed. I know what I'll do if things go south, as regardless of how my school shit turns out I still have options. I just needed Jay to point that out.



About a year ago I started a crazy quarter life crisis, and it's been a wild freaking ride. I think I have my shit together now, but it was really touch and go there for a second. I just don't want to have to go through that again, and I'm struggling a bit with all this administrative bullshit that has the potential to really screw things up.

But what got me through before was not backing down from what I wanted and tons of support from people who matter. I can take solace in the fact that if things get even remotely close to as fucked up as they got last year I know what to do.

And I have options.

I'm never as bad off as I think I am. And god help anyone who gets in my way, cause my friends are better than yours. Also mine are more inclined to blind rage, destroying people psychologically and unpredictable violence.

Wouldn't have it any other way.

That's me. Hey life, I'm going to fuck you sideways until you respect me.

BRING. IT. ON.